It's been 4 years my younger brother has gone. Still all that day chaos remind me of the pain and tensed situation I faced. Same thing happens when mama's anniversary comes. I miss my mama and brother the most. But the one I don't know if I miss or if I feel guilty of being not in contact with my elder sister. She died 2 years ago and it feels like she wasn't there from start, sometimes I feel she is still here. Confused and might remain confused for my whole life.
Considering myself as Jerry from the cartoon character, she was my Tom. I feel my act is up and now I have nothing to do in this world. We have fought too much from the childhood and even our fight last till 2014, the year my younger brother died. We didn't talk for 13 years and lived like enemies. But on my younger brother's death we united again and forgot everything . I never knew I am going to lose her so soon. 2016 wasn't a good year for me. I lost my job and had to move here to Pakistan and I lost my sister. Though my daughter was born in same year but my loss was bigger than the happiness I got. Still Alhumdolillah and all thanks to Allah.
I miss my mama, my sister and my brother too much. I have my family and I am living for them. Everything was going fine until few days ago my father in law dropped himself into coma. He came to his consciousness after 2 days. Doctors were saying differently and this made everybody to keep calm for any situation. I was trying to calm my wife down and all my previous tragedies came into my mind.
Life is not just happy happy. You have to face sorrows and difficulties in emotions too. Emotions are so fragile. I know nothing remains forever, human nature is the actual culprit and emotions are driven by the acts of natural life.
May Allah bless us healthy, wealthy and happy life. Ameen
Considering myself as Jerry from the cartoon character, she was my Tom. I feel my act is up and now I have nothing to do in this world. We have fought too much from the childhood and even our fight last till 2014, the year my younger brother died. We didn't talk for 13 years and lived like enemies. But on my younger brother's death we united again and forgot everything . I never knew I am going to lose her so soon. 2016 wasn't a good year for me. I lost my job and had to move here to Pakistan and I lost my sister. Though my daughter was born in same year but my loss was bigger than the happiness I got. Still Alhumdolillah and all thanks to Allah.
I miss my mama, my sister and my brother too much. I have my family and I am living for them. Everything was going fine until few days ago my father in law dropped himself into coma. He came to his consciousness after 2 days. Doctors were saying differently and this made everybody to keep calm for any situation. I was trying to calm my wife down and all my previous tragedies came into my mind.
Life is not just happy happy. You have to face sorrows and difficulties in emotions too. Emotions are so fragile. I know nothing remains forever, human nature is the actual culprit and emotions are driven by the acts of natural life.
May Allah bless us healthy, wealthy and happy life. Ameen
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