Yeah its been a month

I know its about a month I haven't added any post in my blogger. Well who use to visit my blog? Its just me and sometimes my wife to visit and contribute to increase my posts. I mentioned about the out season rain in my last post. I got problem again of breathing because of such up and down of season. It took about 15 days of my life to cure such problem. I visited the doctor and got well right after I started my treatment by medicines. Then got busy in my routine of work. I had working hours from the afternoon till no specific evening time. This was also the reason I didn't update anything in my blog. Well I mentioned had here at the time I write about my work time. Well you guessed right I am again out of work. Well that job was temporary anyhow and I am not feeling bad about it. But really I am upset of what will happen now. I am trying to get through with some of my headaches. Missing back home too much and this time really feeling blue. Getting all this failure and not coping again for life struggle, I am feeling sad.

No path is enlighten for me to walk on. No way leads me to the destination I want to reach. And even I am not getting any way to reach my beloved one I left back home. It seems I am on war and has left my home to serve any army. I am not a warrior even, this is what I am getting from my intentions. It seems I am just a prey coupled to die in the Colosseum. I am not sure what I am writing here but I am frustrated totally. Getting few days of doing something useful and then again doing nothing makes my mind like this.

Anyhow life still rude with me. Seems my Lord is unhappy still. Praying and calling for help, but asking only the ONE.